I’ve decided to stop writing chapters in the old book and decided that it was time to write a new chapter, new book, with new determination that life ahead of me is better than what I am leaving behind. We all have those chapters, and I read recently that I needed to stop turning the same old pages before I could really move forward. That was tough position to be in, holding onto what was, because there were some great times, and there were really shitty ones too. All too frequently I kept turning back to the old pages to see if there was something I was missing, maybe I overlooked something, maybe there was hope, a possibility?? But to be fair to the future, I can’t be looking forward if I am constantly looking behind me. I need to press on, press forward, anticipate new beginnings.
I had been doing some exploration in some relationships to see if there was potential, did we have the same goals, vision for life, what about children, faith, love. Where do you see yourself in 5 years, where are you willing to move to? Do you vote, love music, travel? What are your dreams, ambitions. Subtle questions in conversation and all at once it seemed, all the doors closed. I’m not angry or bitter, but thankful that I can move forward because I’m an investor. I invest in time. I make time for those that are important to me. It was a good learning experience, because I realized that the one I need , needs to have the same ambition in many areas that I do. Opposites attract, but similarities make for good partners. I’m not suggesting that it’s just how I fee, but what we can compromise on, especially on what is important; love, faith, future. The little things, favorite foods, politics, sports, are all negligible. I still have areas that I want to improve in my own world, but I am willing, now more than ever to open that up to what lies ahead.